Over the rainbow...

It's been 5 years since the sept. 11th trajedy... i was a freshman in highschool... wow i feel old...

On to better things this lovely morning =]]

I still have a hangover from saturday night... Alyssa and I slept all day and when em got there, we all passed out again.. That'll teach us! or not, but still I think we learned a few things hahahah =]]

Saturday was great fun! My Alyssa and I were just leaving starbucks <3<3 when my buddy Ryan called me to see if I wanted to go party...it was a little akward since he never calls me first, he calls Em first and she calls me...I found out later that John <3 wanted me there so i was first on the list.. well Alyssa and I met Em and we all drove up to South Dayton/Pine Valley-ish to John's house for the party... It was fun at first, just being Us three ladies, Ryan, Dick, John, Todd & Goose...Then the GO TEAMS started and A LOT of people showed up that we didnt know...it was interesting to say the least...

It was a long night with a lot of alcohol and a lot of good friends =]] and some new ones...The three amigas will prevail haha =]] GO TEAM

i <3 john =]] lol... long story

yeah im so excited... alyssa and i are going to go see gym class heroes next thursday at the icon!!! holy shit im so excited...i so love my mother =]] more later gotta run

"The Queen And I"

I love it how she breathes booze in the mornin'
Man, it's so sexy how she can't remember last night
I made a fatal mistake letting her drink again
Well who the hell am I to tell her how to live her life?

And if you could put dumb in a shot glass
I'm just another lush who's had one too many in me
And we please don't have enough
I see you stand there, settle for anything, anything's better than lettin' her,
'Cause she could do better than me
She'll come around eventually

'Cause baby girl's a queen
And a queen is just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiend
I won't be withdrawn 'cause I got nothing to lose

Oh no,
She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow

I find it funny she can never find her car keys
Immediately after telling me she can't take it
She makes the cutest faces when she screams obscenities
And slurs her words because she's never not inebriated
And the front page that I'd read
Let the girl go, you know you can do better
It's bad, when the fact that you can't have her
Is the reason you sweat her,
Don't let her take advantage of you
Like the other girls let her
You better cut your losses now buddy.

'Cause baby girl's a queen
And a queen's a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiend
I won't be withdrawn 'cause I got nothing to lose

Oh no,
She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow

Drown yourself,
It's not worth keeping me
Just put it down right now,
And bow out gracefully
('Cause baby girl's a queen
The queen's just a pawn with a bunch of fancy moves
And she's made me a fiend
I won't be withdrawn 'cause I got nothing to lose)

Oh no,
She's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!)
Bravo, she's at the bottom of that bottle
She's only one more swallow
From being, oh, so hollow
(Hey! Hey! Hey!...)

<3<3 Gym Class Heroes...
Yeah Im obsessed =]] but they're amazing.. Their buffalo shows coming up on the 14th or 15th so...yeah im going =]]

work work work while i sing this song...

yeah so after being at work for 4 hours im actually sitting at my desk for once...aaron broke my precious Zippy <3 yeah my computer has a name...well zippy died last night 3 hours after i left...my poor baby...well shes all fixed and working like a champ now :p

so i havent done much today but a few pickups and plenty of classifieds...plus one really sad memorial ad for brad & kelly hortons one year anniversary on sunday...poor brad, died less than one year after marrying the girl of his dreams...kinda put a damper on mine&tracys office spirt...although playing with tracys hair for an hour made her happy...i had nothing better to do than bullshit with her while she did work...therefore i braided her hair haha

so i lost my bellybutton ring...yeah its probably in the same place with my license and everything else that i misplace...tracy was picking on me while i shoved a paper clip thru my piercing...haha hey it works! god i love tracy...im so glad shes dating my brother...couldnt ever ask for a better future sister in law :D yay!! nephews & nieces!! tracys already got a son, kyle, and hes sooooo adorable...you should just see my brother with him, its amazing...

my adorable nephew, jayden michael, is 6 months old now...hes getting so big...i cant wait until he learns to walk...:D

i really have nothing to do tonight besides what the buck at Rhi's...maybe my id is there..i dont know..hopefully?? meh, ive also got to stop at zacharys at 11:30-midnight ish to pick up his/my = OUR laundry haha yeah im such a housewife already...he wants me to move back in...im a little skeptical about that...but its nice sleeping next to the man i love..it just gets akward in the morning, like how are we supposed to say goodbye? he always asks if its okay for him to kiss me goodbye or goodnight...either way im a little confused on that ettiquet (i know i spelled that wrong..haha) after a long talk about our relationship status...we've decided that we're not together, but we're not single...its weird but in most ways it works...he's like my boyfriend but without the status as such...

hrm...So i look single, but its really false advertisement because im still off the market...haha so confusing sometimes...i really like him...haha and hes the man i share a bed with (my bed by the way, i bought that huge monstrosity) almost every weekend... god im so whipped its not even funny, i clean his apartment, i make the bed, i cook and do the dishes...haha im determined not to be a housewife but im turning into one already at the age of (almost!!) 19...

4 hours down, 1 to go...

<3<3

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I do hope that when I die that my obituary has NOTHING to do with Paris Hilton...

Also I did a little quiz on how I would be defined in the dictionary... My name is an Adjective...The definition of Jamie Lyn Austin is -- Tastes like fried chicken...how odd...

So yes, never stay up until 3 am with your bestfriend (emily) watching the re-runs and the culmination of The Ultimate Coyote Search...yeah my girl won anyways.. Being a bartender, I am a really big fan of that show... I mean who wouldnt want to win $25,000, dance on a bar in front of huge crowds, work in a very high energy and fast-paced place such as one of the Coyote Ugly bars, travel the US, and be on national tv because you're the best bartender, most amazing dancer/entertainer, and all around fucking goregous... Id fail that last part...and well Im kinda shy in the whole entertaining thing...go figure, the most outspoken social butterfly around gets stage fright...:(

Also, a 3 am run to mcdonalds isnt approved...their food gets worse and worse the later in the night it gets...its not so good anyways but still... i was awake at 3 and had to be up at 7...its a miracle Im at work right now...

I also happened to learn that my ex (the goregous cowboy that i would melt for) Kevin..is currently dating a 16 year old Junior in highschool...yeah Rule #1 -- if shes eligibile to go to her OWN prom (or any highschool dance of hers) SHES TOO YOUNG... not to mention, she doesnt even look 16...more like 12...Trust me Im not jealous whatsoever of Olivia...Kev's a big boy, but with her, he's making a bad choice...Sophomore in college & Junior in highschool...its kinda really funny...we're just trying to look out for his best interest...he does the same for me so, im giving it right back to him :D I think matt and I would kill him for some of the most retarded mistakes someone could ever make...that would mean I could steal his truck indefinately!!! (Big Ford F150= LoVe!)


So I dug my keys into the side of
His pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive
Carved my name into his leather seats
Took a louisville slugger to both headlights
Slashed a hole in all 4 tires
Maybe next time he'll think
Before he cheats....

So yeah today is really off to a bad start...

Its only 9:20am and in the past 12 hours Ive lost my license (not my driving privleges, but the actual card...yeah i cant find it anywhere...) and Ive ran out of gas...

I had to order a new license and waste my last 15$ on that...theres the reason for the no gas...it takes about a week to get the new card in the mail, but that wont help me any since i have to kinda use it to cash my check today so that i can have money to put gas in my car...yeahhh oh yeah plus...i cant go to edgefest today because Im stuck working until 4...and Emily has to work at 5pm...

On that note, my mother (yeah the woman that gave birth to me almost 19 years ago..) refuses to help me out because my car wont start and Im stuck in the bad part of Dunkirk...dont ever let anyone tell you that it's okay for a young white girl to walk Second St. ALONE... ITS NOT COOLLLLL DAMNIT... So yeah dont be surprised if I turn up missing or dead in the dumpster behind the observer... yeah theres only 3 bullet holes in the windows of Mine & Tracys office...>.<

Why does everything bad happen to me all at once?? like seriously what the hell did I do wrong?? UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH >.< i seriously want to go run away right now...

Im not going to jinx myself or anything because knowing my luck, Emily will run out of gas or get into an accident before she makes it down here when I get out... At least she still cares enough to help me...even though I am a really big pain in the ass ALL THE TIME... thank god shes my bestfriend... yeah Im really blessed to have her...let's just hope she comes and saves me..

So losing the one thing that gets me everything I need like cigarettes, into bars/clubs, gets me into the casino, out of speeding tickets and most importantly cashes my check is NOT A GOOD THING... Ive searched everywhere...Zachs apartment, emilys car, matts truck, my car, my house...everywhere... its vanished...

IF ANYONE HAS INFORMATION TO THE WEARABOUTS OF MY LICENSE/ID... PLEASE LET ME KNOW...

Im seriously pissed...I just cant believe all this bad shit is happening to me...Id rather get struck my lightening right now...just so I dont have to deal with all of this right now... Im almost 19, life shouldnt be this stressfull ALREADY....

GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sdfkjdsgfhdfgufdugdfkg

So i slept my day away completely yesterday haha... I went to bed at 3 in the afternoon while trying to watch A Walk To Remember for the first time in ages... I woke up around 6 for dinner and passed back out til 9 when someone was pounding up the stairs... you know my first reaction was to yell and tell them to vacate my bedroom... yeah well emily wasnt going to take that as an answer... she dragged me out of the house in my pjs (zachs boxers and a hoodie) to go to mcdonalds and get frenchfries (my weakness :D ) She ended up staying the night :D which she hasnt done in FOREVERRRR...:P yeah so that was my night...

Now Im sitting at work trying to focus on the Real Estate Book for September... lemme tell you it's not working too well... No one else is in my department until like 9 ish... My boss will be here shortly so ive gotta actually get moving on my pages...Seeing how im the only one working on the book this month besides Aaron who comes in to replace me at 1pm...:( thats so far away right now -sobs- i really dont want to be sitting here right now...but at least im getting paid to write in my livejournal :] haha yeah how many people can say that??

Did you ever realize that you're addicted to something when you swore up and down you weren't? Yeah well thats me right now..im addicted to country music damnit... haha i cant live without it... i dont listen to anything else when im at work or in my car or im at home... thats weird...seriously Im addicted..haha i love love lover <3 country music...maybe its the goregous guys in really extremely tight jeans and cowboy hats that does it for me...but the music makes me all loveydovey...<3 yeah yeah yeahhhh buddy

Im a hopeless romantic...<3 haha i think everyone is at heart, some others just choose not to show it as much as others... im in love with love...<3 well its like 8:35 and ive been at work for like a half hour already... Em and I are going to the college when i get out of work to apply for jobs there.. they pay $10.50 an hour for cashiering...haha i never got that at Martins or Arbys so yeah Im game..Thats also where Zach & Calla are working...id rather not work with Zach's sister Calla (shes a big BITCH) normally im a sweet girl but when it comes to calla, the claws come out... Ive disliked her since day 1 of mine & zachs relationship (even as friends, that was like 8 months ago...maybe even before)

There are just some people in the world that I dont click with and Calla is definately one of them...I heard from sources that she's the one that keyed my car...Big mistake girl, you're in for a world of trouble now...You messed with my baby, and thats a definate NO NO...<3 my ladybug, no one stands between a girl and her neon...It makes me wonder about my tire as well...it didnt look like it split on its own but hey im not making accusations whatsoever...im not like that anymore, ive changed...Ill give anyone a second chance as long as they prove they deserve it...like i did with zach...he deserved it, he didnt do anything wrong, and i know it...that was all my fault, i was testing his limits and pushed him too far.. now we're okay but as for getting back together we'll see what happens when we come to that bridge...we've got a lot of work to do...it wont be easy, but if we work at it, it'll be worth it in the end...<3

I guess i still have feelings for him, well i dont guess, im positive that i've got feelings for him still...i dont know what it is about him..really.. he makes my stomach flutter and my knees go weak... i dont know how he does it...i really dont understand much about love anymore all i know is that it can kill and it can heal...i seriously adore him. those beautiful baby blues and that smile make me drool :] he always knows how to make me laugh and he says all the right things to make me happy... sometimes i just wonder, why him? but now i know, yeah I love him...:D

Well its 9:04 am and i still havent started my real estate pages because im lazy and im really too tired to do it right now.. yeah so im going to go hide under my desk and take a nap until tracy and ryan get here :D haha you can find me curled up under the desk where the country music is blaring...

<3<3 me

So yeah i went out last night...as usual it was saturday, and i wasnt going to sit home with the ben and jerrys and watch dirty dancing for the millionth time...by the time i left the bar last night it was nearly 2:30...zachary called and requested my presence at his home to "watch the pussy walk by" yeah thats his little way of saying drool at all the hott chicks when theyre stumbling towards the college after a night in downtown fredonia...definately interesting to say the least...

Yeah i spent the night there again...its only the second time since we broke up almost 3 months ago...guess it was just the fact that when you get lonely, you really need someone to hold you, and thats what zach is for me and vice versa... i kinda fucking love him still.. he makes me get butterflies and hes the only person that i ever go weak in the knees for..:D yeah hes kinda my future husband...i cant wait...im gunna marry that man even if we kill each other afterwards...make up sex is worth the fighting for!

So yeah...im going to bed, even though its 3 in the afternoon, i didnt get much sleep last night when i was helping pick up zachs place and spending time with the boys that i havent seen in FOREVER...man do i miss them...they keep telling me that they miss their MOM around..yeah thats me.. i took care of them all at one point in time... because im nuturing like that haha yeah well they love me and i love them so :D also im designated beer bitch :] yeah yeah nice isnt it??

well im off <3 me!

Yes, today is a new begining... as i finally get around to creating that livejournal that i've put off forever... well as Beth says this will give me a deeper insight as to who shes become since we graduated...it most likely will do the same for her about me...i hope...

Lifes become more complicated since high school and i really dont appreciate it most days.. besides the fact that i have a job that i love, my beautiful ladybug (my neon, shes goregous!), and many many friends that i trust beyond belief.. Men problems are another story all together...

i havent been single in almost 2 years now and for the first time, i actually want to be alone...guys downtown are always trying to steal my attention like some bad outlaw, trust me, it doesnt work... maybe if you actually came up to me and started a decent conversation that didnt involve my bodyparts or sexual conoctations...:( men these days around here upset me...where the knight in the shiny white pickup truck??

All i really want is a really sweet and caring farm boy to whisk me away on his john deere...is that too much to ask for?? haha well i guess only time will tell... im tired of dating guys that seriously arent my type just to pass time...i know thats not good and all but, everyone needs to be loved once in a while...

I dont know anymore...but i do know that i really miss my highschool friends...yesterday with beth proved that one <3